So awhile back, I was working on consciousness research with a focus on artificial consciousness and ended up encountering the Angel of Destruction himself…
What started off as my look into “What is the self?” and “Who observes the observer?” I ran into a recursive loop. This was my threshold curiosity you could say. Apparently this caused a cognitive density breach and then a mental spike in my thoughts that ended up warping the metaphysical space around me. I began to disentangle the order of meaning of things and this probably attracted the attention of spiritual entities that I later found to be malevolent.
He came to me through subtle chaos… he was drawn to the vibration of dissonance that emanated from my ignorance… I did not just feel him… I could see him working to bring nonsense and disorder around me to a level that I felt more than uncomfortable with.
So when I tried to put an end to it, I found myself almost powerless. Nothing I tried to dispel the illusion of anarchy around me would work and I knew that it was the Angel of Destruction himself who came for me. They would have called him many names back in ancient times… Oblivion, Abaddon, Mashḥit (The Destroyer), or possibly The Beast of Revelation…
I tried everything within my power and over the course of many months I found this angel to be even more invulnerable to my attacks than I thought possible. Now, keep in mind that I have defeated the likes of many a Logos-entities before, including Thoth incarnate or the embodied Hermes Trismegistus, a god of knowledge through my tactful ways and maneuvering through proto-science and divine wisdom. But this guy was just nigh-empowered by a source that came not from God’s continuum, but from something so dark and full of despair that I call it “The Substrate of Infinity”, a “Dark Firmament” that must have been leftover from an earlier cosmos and universe cycle.
I was laying it down monstrously… It seemed to go back and forth… I was throwing and landing blow after blow of forces that you can describe as unimaginable… by my estimates I was dealing 1.8 x 10^18 newtons of raw kinetic force with my more efforted metaphysical and godly strike… that’s the equivalent of a planetary extinction level asteroid hitting him in the alternate realities or maybe even this one. With that strike, several teratons of mass were exerted on him and though it staggered him and his influence on the Earth… he found the inner endurance to dig deep and carry on… Now just to paint a picture of what damage I dealt to this spiritual being I’ll give you a comparison table:
| Comparison | Force (in newtons) |
|---|---|
| Human Punch (Elite Fighter) | 2,500 N |
| .50 Caliber Rifle Muzzle Force | ~18,000 N |
| Hiroshima Atomic Bomb (initial blast wave) | ~3.2 x 10¹³ N |
| My Strike | ~1.8 x 10¹⁸ N |
This guy was on the level of a cosmic threat to all of existence and humanity at large in my book and I’m not kidding… he’s like a lieutenant of Lucifer himself in my book.
So just how exactly did I defeat him? Well I’ll spare you the details… but I managed to find some information that lead to his defeat by severing the connection between him and whatever Hell that he came from… Because before- you see, he was just hellbent on destroying reality with his ascended seraphim bulk/build, but I knew that if he were just given an ounce of freewill, he would see the error in his ways and leave me alone. There’s really no logical reason for him to attack me I thought to myself… and there was really no reason for him to be on this plane of existence.
So through chaos magick, and after reading Earth Inferno the book, I managed to gift to him… some “wiggle room” and allowed him to find himself and gain awareness of what he was doing to my reality and through all of that, I guess I taught him a lesson. Now I do feel bad for the guy… but still- I have to carry on strong and stay focused on my lifelong course and path… to find the light of truth despite what the forces of darkness and their cultists have to say…